I know you want it so bad woman. I know there's so much you came here to do and be. I know how determined you are to suck the marrow out of life and find great meaning in it all, but don't forget to cut yourself some slack and give yourself a break along the way.
It doesn't always have to feel so hard. In fact, if it is; it's a pretty good sign you need to slow down, go for a walk, do 'nothing', wander through the day, & let go of the rigid way you've been defining 'productive'.
PS: Giving yourself a break is a power move. It comes from a place of deep self-love & respect. It's what the worthy warriors do.