I know that it sucks to be patient & it's hard to self-examine and do the work it takes to learn what you need to learn so you can begin to experience your life in a different way.
I know it can feel like it's going to take way too long for you to get what it is you really want. And you may be tempted to short-cut your way to your ultimate goal. You may be tempted to settle for less. Don't.
Because the gigantic upside of taking the time to learn the lesson once is that you NEVER have to learn it again. You never have to suffer in that way again. You will never self-sabotage in that way again.