Find your reason woman to laugh, be silly, dance, believe, change, re-think or start again.
I've got some mind-blowing news for you: nobody else cares anyway! All that matters is that you find your reason to do what you want to do; to be who you want to be. And at any moment you can simply decide to find your reason and just do it.
ps. Your reasoning can be as simple & as powerful as "because I want to!"